I apologize now for the length of these first couple of posts, once I get the background info out of the way, it won't be so bad, I promise. Now, to let you all know where I am coming from.Inspiration comes in many forms, some of them positive, some of them negative. When the inspiration factors interfere with your life in a coherent way (see the physics degree coming out) the force can be great enough to move you toward change.
Negative Factor: Rat Race
Same old, same old job. Day in and day out, staring at a computer, in front of a wall, without windows, in a quiet room with 2 (sometimes 3) other occupants all doing the same thing. My fellow researchers seem to be content, quietly staring, thinking logically and mathematically, in silence broken only by the clickity-clack of keystrokes on a keyboard for hours on end. I had the opportunity to fill in some roles that required me to travel, meet with people, negotiate, set up and manage temporary remote operations in different cities. Not any easier of a task than research if you ask me, but the variety of new faces, new personalities, changing views and landscapes, and seeing a lot of country from both the road and the air was enjoyable. This experience let me know that I need to end up in a place with more human interaction. Going back to the role of researcher was a change, and change is always refreshing. But now, almost 2 years of being back into that research role, I miss the human element of going to work each day.
Positive Factor: New life
I have a son! Four years after making the conscious decision to have a baby, we finally got one. What could be better inspiration than a baby? Babies are beautiful, babies are fun, babies are work. Babies certainly bring change. Sure your social calendar, sleep schedule, eating habits, workout schedule, pretty much you name it, changes. But also changes occur inside, changes in your thoughts, your emotions, and your outlook on life. You want to be home, you want to be happy when you are home. You want to leave the stress of the office behind. I not only want to be a provider, but also a mentor, nurturer, coach, tutor, etc… Life is not completely about success and achievement, it is about family and doing all I can with and for them.
Positive Factor: Pure Inspiration
A friend of a friend turned out to be a professional photographer. We were at a cookout hosted by the friend and the photographer happened to be there. She “borrowed” our camera to take photos of the party. Later when I got to review these photos, my impression was “Wow, my camera can do that?” She has a blog and continually posts beautiful photos. In addition to a photographer, she is a great writer. She has a good eye, and a good mind’s eye.
Additionally I was looking through a listing of local photographers online and happened upon one who mentioned he started in the Engineering Physics curriculum at his chosen university, but in the third semester came to the realization that physics is too left-brained for him and that he needed a profession that was more balanced between the two cerebral hemispheres. He switched majors in college. I however am well beyond that point but nonetheless, his story actually has more than one similarity to me and his photographs are outstanding. I interpreted discovering his story as inspiration and a sign to pursue deeper into my own photography endeavors.
Positive Factor: Feedback
Who can resist taking picture after picture of a baby? They are just so beautiful. And in preparation for baby’s arrival we bought a new camera. It is a Nikon D40x, arguably the best consumer grade (as opposed to those cameras marketed as professional) digital SLR available at the time. Most if not all of the pictures I share here will be taken with that camera. I started using it to take pictures of our baby for family and they were asking if the pictures were professionally done. Hmmm……maybe there’s something to be said about that? Having seen what my camera can produce in the hands of someone that knows what they are doing, I began to read and experiment. My wife continued to give me very encouraging feedback.
I’m sure there are other factors, but those are the main ones that come to mind.